Amanda's Story
Hi, my name is Amanda Boleware. After being adopted, I was raised in an Apostolic home for most of my childhood. I had a lot of identity confusion and perversion attacking me at a young age, and as a teenager, I dealt with a spirit of rejection, masculinity, and sexual sin. Through the spirit of rejection, I put myself through much emotional trauma in abusive relationships. I sought after love wherever I could get it, accepting whatever to be accepted.
My Story
At 18, I completely ran from God. I only cared about myself. I constantly mocked the Holy Ghost and religion. I eventually started playing with witchcraft; I didn’t realize what it was at the time, but I started letting demonic forces into my home through tarot and crystals, among other things.
In 2020, I was 20 years old and married to a man who cared nothing about me. I was in a completely depressive state, not able to get out of bed for months. He was cheating on me, and after a year of marriage, he left one day and didn’t come back. In the middle of the brokenness I felt, first childhood abandonment, through my teenage years, and then marriage, I felt I had no purpose. I dealt with suicidal thoughts; just a complete emptiness.
In that heartache, God impressed on my heart to message a woman. She was the wife of my mother’s pastor, and I didn’t know her at all. I asked her to pray for me. She began encouraging me and invited me to church.
Two weeks later, I went to church and was filled with the Holy Ghost! Since then, Jesus has given me a new identity in Him. All of my fears of rejection have been replaced with the joy of the Lord. He’s anointed me beyond what I could have ever imagined. He’s used my voice and hands to pray almost 20 people through to the Holy Ghost. He’s also used my testimony in women’s ministry. I’ve been blessed to give Bible studies on holiness, and teach and encourage women dealing with similar issues.
I now serve in my local church’s worship team and am passionately involved in children’s ministry and the youth department. I’ve seen healing through my prayers, and miracles nobody but God could get credit for. I was the farthest I could have been from Him, but he didn’t leave me in it. He was right beside me the whole way just waiting to welcome me back home.
